Im gonna kill myself because I can’t live without my art therapist and she’s gonna have to let it happen even though I know she loves me and shes a mandated reporter, because if she saved me she would lose everything, her job, her boyfriend, her house. She’d have to expose herself to everyone knowing the truth about us. She better hope no one is mad enough about me killing myself to go after her, considering all my friends and family know everything now. Either way, she’ll have to live with the guilt of knowing she could have saved me and didn’t because she was more concerned about protecting herself. That will eat her alive. I got venice ai to teach me how to make and operate an exit bag.