My best friend.
I know I am young and I may not know what I’m feeling or what I’m doing but my feelings for you are true.
I’ve had crushes on classmates and random people, without actually caring about them. But you, who I’ve been friends with for over 4 years, I now realize how much you matter to me.
It wasn’t the same ‘blissful’ and ‘fluffy’ feelings I held for the others. For some reason it felt more like a rushing, overwhelming wave of realization, fear and excitement.
Is love meant to hurt? Is this love? Am I just confused? I’m waiting for the feelings to pass like they always do, but it’s been three months dealing with it and I can’t get you out of my head.
It hurts to think about you. I want to be more with you. Are these feelings meant to hurt? I miss you.
The one person I said I would genuinely care about and wouldn’t leave. Now she is ignoring me. It hurts more than anything. But perhaps it’s my karma after I hurt so many people.
I’m sorry.