I’m more depressed than I’ve been in my whole life… marriage is so lonely. he still doesn’t trust me after a decade. I have no real friends bc he constantly accuses me of planning to have s** with them. I have no one to tell how lonely I am. no one to tell that I’ve been suicidal lately. he prides himself on “reading” people and their emotional states, but he’s so terrible at it that he doesn’t even notice how dissociated I’ve become. I’m so alone… I don’t want the rest of my life to be like this…
