I cried myself to sleep after opening myself up and putting myself out there. I get responses and they just stop – I have to wonder if I’m the issue. If I’m the problem. No matter if it’s familial, platonic, romantic, or s***** I’m never chosen or cared about. It’s been years since I’ve been sincerely complimented or even hugged, and as touch starved and desperate for just a hug I’m so scared of everyone now. If it’s like this, what’s the point? Why do I try just to end up hurt again and again? I give everyone my all and now there’s nothing left. I’m just drifting each day, breathing but not existing.