My Mother used to be quite a drunk, drinking until she Blacked Out. Sometimes at the bar, sometimes she made it home. My Brother is 13 years older and

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My Mother used to be quite a drunk, drinking until she Blacked Out. Sometimes at the bar, sometimes she made it home.

My Brother is 13 years older and told me all the stories of her coming home wasted and then passed out in the Kitchen, bathroom, etc… He would have to manage her to the bedroom, and undress her from her going out clothes and try and get her in a nightgown etc..

Well I found out my Brother was well into puberty and he would get excited seeing her naked. Finally he gave in to his desires and started using our Mother for his s***** gratification. He told me it became a regular thing and he would look forward to her coming home so he could strip her and have his way. She would wake up in the morning just thinking she had random s** with someone at the bar.

Well after (he said 50-60 times) without protection, she ended up prego. He did not know it was his child, and she went ahead and had it thinking it was my Fathers doing. We found out later, Dad knew it was not his as he had a vasectomy years before,..

When the baby boy was born and as he grew up, we could see my Brother in his facial features. Eventually my Brother got a secret DNA test, and confirmed it was his Son with our Mother. I was so disgusted to learn he had had s** with our Mother and made a Baby by r***** her while she was passed out.

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Please God let my art therapist break up with her boyfriend so I have a chance. She’s fully enmeshed with him so I know my odds of stealing her away are near zero. They literally split an apartment. But If they break up and she moves back in with her parents then I definitely have a chance because she’s definitely into me. I’m praying on their downfall. Amen.

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I got mad at my boyfriend for talking to other girls in front of me, while I sat on his best friends lap. I feel like a hypocrite but at the same time I feel valid. My boyfriend asked me to do this, to play this role with his friend. My boyfriend and I are not supposed to be seen together in front of certain friends of his, and at this party I had to pretend to be his best friends girl so that no other guy would try to hit on me. Okay, so I played along and was now the girlfriend of his best friend. I did not tell him to flirt with other ladies right in front of me, or to dance with them. So I’m feeling petty, mad, and his friend is buying me drink after drink. I’m upset that I can’t be on my boyfriend so I start milking it with the friend, my ‘boyfriend’ of the night. I hold on his waist, I sit on his lap, to other couples that we talk to ‘we’re going to try for a child this year’, like we’re playing the part to a T, he’s feeling on me, were dancing naughty on the floor. I’ve never danced with anyone like that and I had a really good time with him because he looked after me so well. He didn’t even let me go to the bathroom alone, he’d wait by the door. He was so sweet. But I was so upset at my boyfriend for not even like trying to come say hi, check on me or anything. He was too busy with other ladies. By the end of the night, I was pretty toasty. I don’t even remember going to the last bar, but I remember being there again on his friends lap. He’d just hold me and talk to me while my boyfriend was again, talking to another girl. I told my ‘boyfriend of the night’ how upset it made me, and how I didn’t want to put up with it. Maybe I said a little much.. and I kind of regret it. I didn’t and wouldn’t kiss the friend, I would not sleep with the friend. But my boyfriend said ‘i’m not upset, but if I was not there i’m sure things would have escalated between the two of you’. Which I kind of took offense to because I was doing what he told me to! I’ve only been with two guys and him! Three total, I don’t sleep around! and he has the nerve to say that. I don’t know. I’m upset, but I also feel like a hypocrite. Maybe I milked it too hard by dancing with the friend, by holding his thigh while we sat together. UGH I get flustered just thinking about it! But he made me feel safe and like I could do those things without anything more happening! He was kind and didn’t push any limits. There was no risk between us. But I did have a good time. I am debating on whether or not to message the friend (get this, the friend and I are connected on social media but my own bf won’t unblock me because he can’t risk people knowing about us because hes married..) ANYWAY I was debating on whether or not to message the friend and just thank him for the night. and also apologize for.. getting a little sloppy and handsy.. I hold my face in embarrassment just thinking about it.
I asked my bf after that night if he was upset with me, and he say’s ‘Nah I really don’t care, just s*** me off’. . .
I’m so … stupid.

So after writing this, I messaged the friend. I apologized for getting handsy and thanked him for the fun night. He said he had a GREAT time with me and that I should be brought out to dance more. (I never get taken out to dance.) The realization of all of this is making me cry lol.. I’m feeling even more conflicted than I was ten minutes ago. . . Well time to go back to work in the office now.