I miss Jason so much, I can’t take being alone anymore. I want to feel like a person again, but I don’t know what I did to make him hate me so there’s nothing I can do to fix whatever tf is wrong for me. I don’t know why acting desperately makes people avoid you even more. If anybody had helped me in the first place I wouldn’t be desperate for someone to trust right now. He’s the only person that’s safe, but I’m f****** evil so there’s no hope for me.