I never used to think suppressed or recovered memories were a real thing until i experienced them. I had always wondered why some childhood memories did not seem to be there, no normal memories of growing up, or why what few i had were specifically what they were. And similar with dreams. Turns out they weren’t dreams they were suppressed blocked memories. I was vaguely aware that extended family was weird and vague rumors and gossip were there in the background but i had never been sucked into that creepy sick vortex. Turns out i was after all. But apparently in my specific case it was both my mother and older sister that were molesting me (i am male). Dont go down the road of boys cannot be molested by women, nor that only men do this. I did not sign up for giving my sister o r a l s e x with her legs holding me in place when i was 10. I did not ask for my mother to m a s tbur bate me as i lay sick and feverish in bed with her hand tightly over my eyes as i squirmed and panicked through the confusion of my first waking climax when i was 11, and was left sprayed with my own s e m e n as she simply left me lying there. I ended up hypers e x ualized and a s** addict by these experiences and still struggle to be physical with a woman, and have an utter aversion to m a st u rba tion.
