This is a message solely for myself. The "you" I refer to in the message below is myself. ——————— How about you stop lying to yourself? How about you

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This is a message solely for myself.
The “you” I refer to in the message below is myself.

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How about you stop lying to yourself?
How about you realize everything you’ve been doing isn’t for you, it’s for others?
How about you stop doing the things you don’t want to do and start doing the things you genuinely love?

You’re not being fair to yourself
You’re not treating yourself like you would a friend </3
Why do you do this to yourself?
Why do you force yourself to go to sleep at 4 am?
Why do you force yourself to scroll on Instagram until you're contemplating killing yourself?
Why do you force yourself to scroll on Pinterest until your eyes burn and your head hurts?
Why do you engage in self-destructive habits when you could be living your best life?

Why?

Please treat yourself with kindness?
Please stop self-sabotaging.
Please stop letting the intrusive thoughts take over.
Please, please, please let go of your bad habits. Your self-destructive habits.

Please.

New Confession

One of my mom’s sisters came down to visit her and my mom had a doctor’s appointment and she laughed and my aunt came into my bedroom and she started telling me about her catching her husband with the daughter and I said are you kidding me she said no and so I asked her well what are you going to do about something like that she says well I want to get back at at him for doing that and my daughter I wanted you know get back at them for doing that and I said do they know that you know she goes yeah I walked right in on them right when he was coming inside of her and I said really she goes yes and she said that’s kind of the reason why she’s down here visiting my mom just to get away and I said okay and I said what do you mean get get back at them she says well I want to have s** with you and I looked at I said what and she said yeah. Then I asked you I said does my mom know about this and she said well your mom told me that you and her have been fooling around since your father died and I wanted to have some s** with you myself and I said it’s okay and so she just wrote right in front of me and I never thought my aunt this Aunt anyways would do something like this with me and and so I just wrote and she’s just sitting on my bed right in front of me naked and so I started kissing her and started getting it on and I ended up f****** her and coming inside of her and she says we need to keep doing this until you get me pregnant and I should have what and she said yeah I want to get pregnant by you. I said Mom knows about this and she said yes. So me and my aunt pretty much had s** every day twice a day sometime. She was here for almost a whole month and we did it every single day on the day twice sometime and we both are enjoying each other s******* doing a little bit of k**** things now and then and she was really enjoying me shooting my sperm inside of her she said every time that I did to put it so deep inside of her that she would get pregnant. I got pregnancy test done and she was pregnant when she left here going back to her husband and her daughter so he would know that he was doing the same thing that he was with cheating on her with their daughter and pregnant with my baby inside of her I know he didn’t really care for me at all that’s why she wanted me to do it with her and have s** with her she got really good at it and k**** too on some of the things that we used to do I tied her up a few times really enjoyed that cuz I can do anything I wanted to and I did I made it s*** my c*** a lot and then stick it back inside of her when I was done about to come just to make sure we got her pregnant before she left.

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I never used to think suppressed or recovered memories were a real thing until i experienced them. I had always wondered why some childhood memories did not seem to be there, no normal memories of growing up, or why what few i had were specifically what they were. And similar with dreams. Turns out they weren’t dreams they were suppressed blocked memories. I was vaguely aware that extended family was weird and vague rumors and gossip were there in the background but i had never been sucked into that creepy sick vortex. Turns out i was after all. But apparently in my specific case it was both my mother and older sister that were molesting me (i am male). Dont go down the road of boys cannot be molested by women, nor that only men do this. I did not sign up for giving my sister o r a l s e x with her legs holding me in place when i was 10. I did not ask for my mother to m a s tbur bate me as i lay sick and feverish in bed with her hand tightly over my eyes as i squirmed and panicked through the confusion of my first waking climax when i was 11, and was left sprayed with my own s e m e n as she simply left me lying there. I ended up hypers e x ualized and a s** addict by these experiences and still struggle to be physical with a woman, and have an utter aversion to m a st u rba tion.