what do you do when you’re with someone who you love with all your heart, but they’re not willing to put effort into anything you ask them to. I tell you I’m feeling lost and suicidal, and you leave me on read. over and over. I have to beg you to care. and then when you finally show me a thread of emotion, it’s blaming me for the way I feel. telling me I must want to die, that he’s not worth me staying alive for, that maybe he should just kill himself since everything he’s been working for has been for nothing. it wasn’t you. it was me. I just wanted your comfort. your reassurance. I’m sorry