I am an academic achiever, before i was devoted in my studies I do well in my school i got perfect score or passing score. But now everything change I am not devoted in my studies anymore, I am experiencing self disappointment all the time I am a type of a person that is grade conscious, I did my fvcking best but that wasn’t enough to satisfy myself. I keep on failing my studies, i wanted my family to be proud of me, but i can’t even be proud of my self. I should be the one whom will support and trust my self but i don’t. I feel so weak, i keep on facing my problem everyday. I was tired of it. But I don’t want to end things, I am afraid of death. My heart weight so heavy, I don’t want this. I wanna heal please