You know what makes me furious. Having a guy tell you things and you know he’s being honest, but you get sad and angry because your healing currently and you wish the last guy could have just shown you that same level of appreciation and affection, now that this new guy is doing it you don’t know how to react because it’s like a shock like what the f*** is this occuring? And you think why didn’t I get this before, do I deserve this? I mean like being treated well is having bad effects on you because your so useto being treated crap. I literally am crying in anger like I need to beat the s*** out of something, and I feel like screaming in the face of the one that hurt me… just to say f*** you, I won’t text him that because I’m done with him. He’s lucky I don’t tell my dad and brother’s in reality because they’re probably who I’ll cry too at some stage.
