After the injury 6 years ago, everything changed. I haven’t known a moment without pain since then except for being under for various surgeries. Once the people in my life figured out I could no longer be of any use to them, financially or physically, they all disappeared. I’ve become agoraphobic, the only people who care about me are my 2 adult children. But I’m becoming a burden to them. I’m 45 and in terrible health but I feel I won’t die of natural causes before they start resenting me instead of loving me. I’ve made actual plans and haven’t told a single soul about how I feel. I want to but find myself completely incapable of doing so. Just trying to find the best way of leaving messages behind to explain to them how they’re was nothing they could have done. I’m too good at hiding myself. I’ve had to all of my life.
I want to stay, I want to meet any eventual grandchildren, but if I’m like this or worse when they arrive, they won’t have any good memories of me.
Anyway, thank you for reading. I hope this helps someone else if for no other reason than to convince at least one person to check on the people they’ve always relied on. If they are unable to be of use anymore, they may be in my position of hopelessness.
