I don’t feel like I’ll ever be in a romantic relationship. I have thought that for the last 4 years. I know I am young (17, I am fine with revealing this). I know all of the b******* that the life’s ahead of me. But… for me, that’s just empty. I don’t see it. I am all about security, data protection, and all of that, and I just see the world we are living in as a dystopia with depression, suicides and and requirements for being someone worth it at an all time high. I am fat. I barely feel normal. I workout. I try to be social (I actually managed to compliment two strangers today). But it all feels pointless. It really does. Nothing I do seems to matter. I’ll just be another cog in the system. Just another drone for capitalist overlords trying to take every inch of your privacy away. And probably, just another incel, wondering what the f*** have I done wrong (and I mean incel in the way of involuntarily celibate, not actually raging redditors, I hope at least). I feel like nothing. And I feel like everything is out to just… steal from me. Centralistic POV, maybe egoistic, but… Everything I do feels wrong.