I quit drinking and doing drugs just over a year ago. And every day is a struggle. The reason I used to do drugs wasn’t for the enjoyment, but to dampen the voice in my head telling me to kill myself every single f****** day.
Now its been an entire year of fighting that demon every single second of the day… And all I was to do is slit my own throat and watch in the mirror as my life drains from me and my eyes become vacant.
I don’t know how long I can keep going… And I don’t want to fall back into the trap of excessive drug use just to numb this pain
