my father has been dead for 5 years now and i have had to rapidly grow up. Not a day goes by where i dont miss him, and my dog that has died lied year, who was his best friend. My dad was the hardest working man I ever knew and probably will ever meet in my life. I miss him, i miss my ex girlfriend and it makes me upset and depressed when i see her new boyfriend online. She made me so happy and made me forget every little thing that was bothering me at that time. I loved her, and i think i still do love her. It just upsets me when i see her f****** boyfriend, because whenever i see him, i think how could i have lost to this f****** shithead. I miss my father, my dog and my ex. The only thing im living for at this moment is my mother. I have attempted suicide once, when i was around 13-14. I tied my belt around my neck and tightened it as much as i could. I couldnt keep going because im too much of a f****** p**** to pull through. I continue to think about suicide, but i shut that thought and feeling down when i think of my mother. My father is my biggest hero.
