(this was in summer) A while ago I had this “friend” he was older then me by a couple of years. At the time I had just turned 10. I was trying to help him through his “pain” which I now realize was him just trying to manipulate me into feeling bad for him. Lucky him it worked, really well too. Every day he would vent to me about all of the “awful” things in his life to make me feel sympathy. I was so scared everyday thinking that he would kill himself and one day he decided to act like it. I have no clue if it’s fully true or not still to this day. but regardless he didn’t do it, which at the time I was relived because he was my bestfriend at the time. I had no one else. After that whole fiasco, my mother and my father both found out obviously because I ran bawling. I couldn’t help to not tell them. Of course their response was to take everything away but they didn’t this time. Shortly after I forgave him being my sympathetic self at the time. Which of course after that made me worry even more, and I couldn’t help but check up on him even more consistently then I was already. If you think for a minute that he stopped using me, you would be so wrong, he realized that he could use me even more. So he started talking about s***** things, and since I was only 10 at the time I didn’t understand what they were. After I found out what they were I stopped all communication with him, because I was being groomed, I was coming close to probably being s******* taken advantage of, and not only that he would have probably gone to jail because he was 15 turning 16 at the time. still to this day it haunts me and its fucked me up so bad that I have lost most of my memories, and I can only remember pieces of what I just wrote everything else is a fucked up blur and I can’t do anything about it, other then try to heal by myself. Now that was 4 years ago but I will never forgive him for what he did to me (I left details out) because I am 13 almost 14 and have to deal with those images for the rest of my f****** miserable life.
