I wish I could tell you how hurtful your words are. I wish I could tell you that everytime you bring up an argument over nothing, it makes me not believe you love me. I dont want to think that, I honestly want to believe you everytime you say you love me, but you make it so hard sometimes. Everything just seems to be my fault all the time. Its draining to hear “we’re done, Im not attracted to you, im fat, im a w****, i am worthless” and countless other things every single day. Like i feel it draining me, and I dont want to feel like that. I hate that I feel like that. I always have to be the bigger person in every argument and I am always the one begging for love when all I do is love you unconditionally. I am tired of begging to be loved, that is not fair to me. I tell myself its fine, I tell myself you dont mean it, but after a while of hearing all those things over and over again, its hard not to feel like you mean it. I sit here alone and cry because I cant even explain any of this to you without you getting mad at me.