I’m scared. I’ve been in recovery from my eating disorder for almost a month now (by myself, because getting treatment would require my parents knowing). The first two weeks or so were very difficult, but I got through it. But now, I’m starting to doubt myself, and I don’t know how much longer I can do this by myself. It’s hard and confusing and I don’t know if I have the strength and I just don’t know what to do sometimes, and I’m scared of messing up and losing my progress, but I’m also scared to tell my therapist that, because he’s been worried about my eating and we agreed that if I could recover on my own, we wouldn’t need to get my parents involved and get ED-specific treatment (I do not want my parents to know I had an ED relapse and my therapist does not specialize in eating disorders).

F*** this is just so much sometimes and I wish I had someone to guide me through it