I cant do this anymore I don’t know what to do I just can’t find simple joy or really anything anymore and I hurt myself a few times but I’m scared to tell my therapist because I feel like I’m troubling her and because it just feels like I can’t do anything right now just doesn’t work I don’t know if that makes any sense but that’s just how it feels to feel like empty and everything seems to go horribly and perfectly at the same time and I don’t know how to feel anything other than guilt or nothing and just I don’t know how to fix it and I just don’t know don’t wanna be here I don’t wanna die just don’t wanna have anything other than yarn and free time I just can’t
F****** do it anymore