I just realised why I have issues with writing essays.

I used to be an A student, and that put lots of pressure on me as a kid, well fast forward to when I was 13. I had an essay that was due on a poem in English, I was so excited to show why mother how much I wanted to do it by myself. but once she knew what the subject was, she immediately wanted to take over. I stood up to her and said no, I was slapped each time i said no, then afterward I closed the website I was typing it on. My mother got up from her bed and left the room to grab our pet dog’s leash. At the time our dog was in his crate because he was having panic attacks.

When she came back, she said, “I am writing this paper for you!” and hit me with the rope. It went on for about 15 minutes before she stopped, and I just gave her the computer. So now I know why I am so hesitant when it comes to writing essays. Was I wrong for wanting to complete it by myself?
all I know is I was hit with a rope and had welts all over my body because I wanted to be independent.