to Mr S.T., from Belgium, who plays bagpipes and everyone else, sir. this is a very angry rant and it is all true but its not going to be what you think. why did you need to deceive me and tell you “I have no partner” when you did all along. you have your status on “single” fooling everyone, but you have a girlfriend. thats kind of… fraud. it is a criminal offence to lie like that. It is emotional blackmail, to get people to react a certain way, then blame them for the reaction. Why is it that your so called happiness always comes at the expense of someone elses… do you know what hurts most? that I treated you like a friend even though my heart was broken again and again, but I didnt even have anyone to call when my granny died. I never really had a friend, just a person who was using me and never actually gave a f*** if I was alive or dead. My granny WAS my only friend and she is gone now, and you are treating me like a stranger that doesnt even deserve to know the truth. I made space in my life for you, when you said you had no one, and you only took your trash there and left. with what right did you treat another persons´daughter this way? go ahead tell everyone I am a crazy person, but dont forget to also tell them how you threatened to unalive yourself, told me to be happy you fucked a prostitute at some carnival, said you had a girlfriend the day after I confessed, made me worry that something will happen. etc etc. and tell them how I made a T shirt for your birthday after you broke my heart in pieces and yelled at me, so I had to take a whole jar of catnip pills every day that my hands wouldnt shake so much. Tell them how I had nightmares of you abandoning me to die like you did with some others. Tell them how many times you tricked me and ridiculed me. tell them how you almost drove your brother to suicide, how you always had an excuse to hurt people who cared. are you happy? how can you do that and feel no remorse, not even saying sorry… and tell them how I still loved you after all this, and wondered if you have enough to eat and warm socks to wear because im still your friend even if you are not, even if im bawling my eyes out again, but ill be fine again and smile again and be nice to you. and letting that girl live in a van with you, im worried… for you sanity. you, really… you´re fckin insane.you two fools. can you even buy decent food or are you living on spoiled oysters.
