I hate myself. I’m deeply ashamed and embarrassed of myself. I feel worthless. I can’t help myself accomplish the things in my life that I wanna accomplish, even getting out of bed or taking a shower or eating consistently are super laborious and difficult to bring myself to do. I feel like a social parasite, I always feel like people tolerate me at best or try to shun or ignore me at worst. And inversely, I find myself isolating myself even further by not approaching people I wanna talk to or avoiding people that talk to me first. I just don’t feel like I should even exist. I am a liability. My existence has no meaning and I feel like nothing would change if I were to be taken out of the equation.
