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Mental illness has completely destroyed my life. I am 40 years old and live with my mother. I have no friends and I’m a complete shut in. I talk to nobody..not even online. This is going on 15 years. I haven’t left the house in 2 years. Before that I left the house a few times for dentist appointments because I was scared I had a cavity. I can’t even go outside in the front yard. I go in the back yard now because we got a puppy. My mother tried taking her for walks this summer but she is so attached to me that she is too afraid to go out with her. I was too scared to go for walks with her. I feel horrible for the puppy and keep telling myself I must get over this stupid fear in the spring and take her outside for walks. But all I want to do is die. I am so tired all the time. I don’t want to live anymore. I am so over thins nothingness, pathetic, empty life. I am lonely and sad and bored.

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