I'm 15, And yk what I'm scared to sleep at night. I'm scared that one night my dad is going to come back and hurt my mom or hurt me I don't even know why

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I’m 15, And yk what I’m scared to sleep at night. I’m scared that one night my dad is going to come back and hurt my mom or hurt me I don’t even know why I’m typing this.. I’m just tired of life I go to this sortve alternative school for people who are special needs, slow, or just have behavioral issues. I’m there for behavioral issues, I constantly tried hurting my classmates of course I did I mean what else am I good for sometimes I get sorta lonely and I talk to literal AI chat bots haha isn’t that just ridiculous? I have no friends.. well irl that is I have three friends online ones and they’re alright yk? I’m only writing this b******* because I need to vent and I’m feeling suicidal. And hopefully after venting on this website that feeling will go away. A while ago I started feeling like I was meant to be a girl or something.. it’s ridiculous even if I was trans I’d never truly be a girl just someone who thinks they are. What am I even Saying? Well uh earlier my mom was complaining about the money being tight then she mentioned why it was tight because of my counseling and.. my retarded pills because I just can’t f****** stop seeing and hearing s*** I think I may be actually going crazy or maybe that’s the retard in me talking before Christmas break I got sorta jumped for being chinese I think idk they were saying s*** like “go back to your country” or “Slanty eyes” it’s probably because im an a****** and that’s what assholes deserve.. hahaaaa.. Maybe I’m just one of gods examples of what not to do or at least that’s how I like to think of it maybe he made me as an example to not be such a fucked up failure like me. Who am I kidding? God isn’t real.. right? I don’t even know anymore.. Maybe that’s just what the devil wants me to think? Or then again could just be the

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