TW: Self harm
I’m 33 years old but I’ve been so lost, depressed, and numb from life beating me down that I self harmed the other day. Nothing dangerous – I took a Razer blade (which i sanitized first) and sliced very tiny marks into my arm just to watch the blood. I did it again a few nights later. Idek if it helped or why I did it. Maybe it was too feel something. I’m guilty because I’m 33 and i know I shouldn’t harm myself. I should know better. I know it doesn’t “help” but it did in a way. I can’t tell anyone or they’ll freak out. I’ve been wearing long sleeves shirts every day even in bed so my spouse doesn’t notice.
