• 2 weeks ago

I can’t get them to treat me badly, no matter how hard I try. I don’t want to lose them, but they treat me so well. Why can’t I just accept that and be happy? Why can’t I be like everyone else? Why do I want them to hurt me, to leave me alone, to tell me I do t mean anything but keep me around for the company? And why won’t they do any of that. I don’t like this. This doesn’t make any sense. I want them to stop, and I hate myself for wanting that more than anything