I know this site isnt what it used to be but it still helps to get this out
I want to know why. I want to know why everything goes wrong. Ive never had a safe place to go. Ive never had money. My family abuses drugs and eachother. I live in a moulding building where every tiny feeling of happiness feels like a veil over my real life. None of them believe in me or will help me leave without gaslighting and projecting onto me.
I have friends but I met them all online and they live hundereds of miles away. I cant tell them what Im going through because they have their own problems and anxieties and I dont want to become one of them.
I want to know why. If I could get even one solid answer of what Ive done wrong I would be content. Ive tried worship of so many different religions. If there is a god I want to know why they would do this. Ive given up begging for forgiveness. I want to leave this horrible place but I have no idea how
