i’m 21 F been dating my boyfriend (21) for little over 3 years now. we’ve always worked together and just recently got a very good job together. for the past year ive felt like i’ve emotionally and physically detached myself from him but for some reason I can’t leave him? we’ve been thru A LOTT together. we’re both toxic to each other it’s not one sided. but when it comes down to it at the end of the day, he’s truly my best friend and I really don’t want to lose our friendship. we’re trauma bonded and I feel as if we both stay because it’s our comfort zone and it’s all we know. lately i’ve been finding myself lost in my own world in my head wishing I could just let go.. but I can’t? why? i’m craving excitement, a fresh start. I feel as if i’ve been “dating” my best friend. never truly fell in love. we don’t have s** anymore. I want to separate but how would I even do that if we both work TOGETHER and neither of us plan on leaving anytime soon??? I feel like i’m wasting my youth.