I’m losing myself, my beauty since I’m getting older (39)
I’m secretly drinking…all the time.
I have friends I’ve known for two years almost and they don’t know but they’ve never seen me sober.
I know the path I’m headed down will only bring me more strife and more problems.
Money has not given me happiness..
I live in a large home it’s beautiful but it’s hard to clean it and my kids and I are all spread out more now.
What was once a smaller home and life with more noise and no privacy has become quiet and too “open”
I hate my life.
I hate who I am
And I waste so much time and get nowhere.
I’d rather watch a movie than be an actress in my own life…
If I keep this up, I’ll lose everything.