I’m small, like 4’11 roughly 100lbs small.

It’s after hours, no cameras or people around except one. Guy corners me in the barn locker room with his arms on both walls on either side of me(so I’m literally cornered) and just says ‘I’m gonna throw you on the ground and r*** the s*** out of you.’ I had no idea what to say, he was so close to me that it made my head spin. He was much bigger but I was smarter. I took his hat off and threw it behind him making him turn to look which gave me the opportunity to sneak under his arm and run away. I didn’t bother to tell anyone because nothing happened..

I’m driving around at night alone, just cruising because I like to drive. I pull into a small gas station and park in one of the front spots. I pull the door to see that it isn’t open and other cars park at the station. One on either side and one directly behind me. The driver gets out of the car that parked directly behind mine and strikes up a conversation about the store being closed. He asks why I’m out so late and where I’m staying – We chatted for a while and for some reason it didn’t even click to me that I was surrounded. The other drivers had gotten out of their cars as well and were just leaning on their doors watching the conversation. I can’t remember how the conversation ended but he did end up moving his car and letting me leave. I didn’t even think about the scenario I was in until someone brought it up to me.

Had some man calling my phone insisting I pick him up from the airport. Saying things like ‘Oh yeah, I’m your cousin it’s been so long and it’s a surprise to the family, so don’t tell anyone and come pick me up!’ ‘I can count on you right?’ Knowing the class of my family, I didn’t go.. I told an officer about this incident while he was talking to me about another incident T-T and he said ‘Don’t listen to any of those people and just call the police. They probably would have kidnapped you and stole your car.’ ..Okay 🙁

One day at work a customer looked familiar. He kept staring at me and stayed until closing. I was going to clock out and leave when a fellow employee noticed him get up to follow me. My coworker stopped him and grabbed his arm to pull him to the side of the building so he couldn’t see which car I’d get into. I left but it wasn’t long before a car was directly on me following at whichever speed I went. Slow or Fast didn’t matter he stayed behind. I drove to a neighboring city and confirmed it wasn’t coincidence when he followed me back into the city. I couldn’t go home, wasn’t about to pull into a park, and didn’t know where the police station was. I called my bf at the time and he told me to just go to his home. I pulled into the driveway which was in a cul-de-sac and the truck only finally left when he saw my bf waiting in the driveway.

I can’t post a pic on IG without dudes blowing up my phone for days – maybe I should learn to block.. but that feels so mean..
I can’t go to the stores alone (literally any store even grocery) without being followed, talked to, cat called etc.
I slept at a friends house for one night because I needed help and I felt him kiss me in my sleep on my lips!(Face lol cmon now)
I needed a massage on my like upper chest area and a friend who is a massage therapist offered assistance… My whole b*** was out the whole time and he didn’t freaking tell me or fix it, or ANYTHING like wtf – So upsetting..
Sales people come to my home to sell me their services and end up asking for my number and or a kiss before leaving. LIKE WHAT NO
And I can no longer be naked in my home or pants less in my backyard garden because a man hobo decided to make shelter right behind my home… whyyy

Sometimes I just want to be free of judgment. Free to do whatever without worry of others.
Don’t mind me, just venting to open space and to the one or two people that end up reading this.