I hold so much pain from the last 31 years deep inside me and carry it with me everywhere I go. I have been hurt, beating, chewed up and spit out by this world. I still continue to wake up everyday and face it. This pain makes me stronger but man it sure is a big burden. I’m trying to find a way to release it. I’m trying not to let it make me cold and callus or change me but damn man. This world s**** and so does everybody in it. Maybe one out of every hundred people in this planet actually has kindness respect and morals for human life. That’s why I stay to myself with my dogs and my weed. No need for a woman every one I’ve ever had has done me wrong including who I thought was the love of my life. I was a fool for letting her leave and come back seven times and she left for the 8th and final time. I let her use me as a doormat when I was doing good she would come back home and when I was doing bad she would leave and I was so blind by the fact that I thought I loved her that I let her drag my heart through the mud, manipulate me and control me. So no need for a woman they are all succubuses out to eat your soul. My man’s best friend is a dog and I’ve got two of them that are my entire world and they are all I need. If everybody in this world are more like dogs this world would be perfect.