I’m terrified to meet my long distance girlfriend. I have such a low opinion of myself. I think I’m ugly as all hell. I’m too fat. And proportioned weird. I’m scared that she’ll finally see me in not a still image and decide I’m too grotesque to be with. Despite my attempts to lose weight I never lose more than a few pounds that I immediately put back on. And I’m scared to talk to her about it. She’s never given me any reason to think any of this, it’s all my own thoughts, but it doesn’t make me feel any better.