Do you ever feel like your life is perfect? Like you have a nice family, caring friends, maybe even a loving partner, and no problems in your life and you just randomly feel this wave of sad feelings, pain, and this urge to just let it all out, cry your sould away like your life depends on it? It’s been almost a year that I’ve been distracting myself. By that I mean that whenever I was alone I just listened to music, ate or watched a movie, scrolled through social mdia e.t.c. Just a couple weeks later, I was out with some friends and I got up.Since I got bored, I decided to just go sit on the beach, and look around. After a while, I started thinking, and thinking, about stuff that didn’t matter, and even if they did, tehy were in the past. I hate crying in public, but there was noone around and I felt my eyes burning. Before long, I felt a few tears run down my cheek and I tried whiping them off, but more and more kept coming. Then a friend called up to me and I quickly whiped my tears away as I put on a fake smile. I joined them, pretending everything was fine when in reality I was feeling horrible. I’ve gotten to a point where I don’t know how to cry, since I do once a a long while, so I just watch sad vids to bring me back this urge to just cry.