Its hard to enjoy the present when you know you have no future. I don’t think they make a psych med for that. Dead end vibes. I’m a passive participant in my life and I feel hopeless. There’s nothing I can do to save myself. I didn’t get an education, I have no career, and I’m stuck in the disability trap. I’ve been middle class my whole life so I have no idea how to survive in the poverty I will be subjected to when my parents die. I have no reason to live besides taking care of my mother. I dont want to kill myself but i want to die. I want someone to shoot me in the head. I want to go to sleep and never wake up. This world is not good for me. Make it stop. I want out.
