I’m a suicidal, nobody knows. And I am suffering alone, crying my tears out. I’m scared of growing up, I feel the people I love the most are starting to fade away. I’m scared to meet new friends in my new school. And I don’t know what to do… I feel like my classmates thinks I am stupid. I do act to be funny or hilarious so I could just have someone besides me, and no one notice how hurt I am. I try to talk with them to be close, they ignore me by not talking back, just looking away. But I am hurt, really, really deeply hurt. Scared to be canceled, scared to make mistakes, scared for someone to hate me. I couldn’t take it, I want to rest so badly to ignore this situations. Hence, I could never hurt the people around me when I am gone.
