!! TW GROOMING & PEDOPHILIA, MENTIONS OF SUICIDE !!
people always warn you about men on the internet. but they never warn you about the women.
i’ve been groomed by two women, and i feel absolutely sick over it. both of these women happened within two years of each other. both of these women were my “best friends.” both said i acted “mature for my age.” both were the people i was closest to at the time, the people i confided my worst fears and secrets to. they both took advantage of me, and i never even realised it. i was so stupid.
the first woman was nineteen, and i was 12. i thought i was cool for having an older girlfriend, i thought it was perfectly fine because i was mature for my age and i looked a little older (at least fifteen. that’s still an issue). she was always kind to me, so i never really saw a problem with our relationship, until my second experience. that’s how i realised i was groomed.
the second woman to groom me fucked me up mentally. i was 14 at that stage, and she was practically 18. to this day she denies she ever groomed me. i was not her only victim, but i was the first. she also dated another 15 year old, and then when she turned 18, she dated a 14 year old and had romantic relations with a 16 year old.
this woman was a nightmare. she constantly guilt tripped me, and acted suicidal, when i wasn’t on my phone for five minutes. FIVE MINUTES. i’m not over-exaggerating. she blew up my phone with messages of her saying things like “why dont you love me, am i not enough” , “i’m in the hospital now” , and suicidal messages. it got to the point that my ex was dragged into it, and he told me i had to give her more attention. he defended her insane actions??
she constantly made me feel like i owed her something. like i had to show her how wonderful she was, or she would kill herself. she said s***** things about me to other minors, and even tried to get me to have p******** with her and another girl (not sure of her age, but she was older than me by a few years at least). any time i tried to confront her about grooming me, she turned it all around and made it seem like it was normal. and i did believe her for a while. the only other person who made me see the issues at hand was a girl i dated after i tried to end any romantic relations with the adult woman. i can’t believe i couldn’t see the issues myself.
i was so hurt by this woman. we met after she pulled something really horrible with another person i unfortunately had an unpleasant experience with, and took advantage of my vulnerability to get close to me. and then, immediately started flirting with me. i feel so sick whenever someone mentions her name, and i still feel like all of this was my fault. did i lead her on too much??
getting rid of her was so hard. she made you feel like she would always be there for you, she encouraged you to open up about stuff and then took advantage of your vulnerability. she’s absolutely toxic. any time i tried to unfriend her, she would make me feel bad about it. at one stage, i tried to reach out to her so we could be FRIENDS and forget everything that happened (why did i do that????) but of course, that ended in disaster. people began to realise she was a groomer, and i was so utterly overwhelmed by the amount of people trying to get information about my experience with her. people talked about me as if they knew what i felt, and it made me so mad. they didn’t even know the half of it. i’m just so grateful she’s out of my life now, and i really hope we never cross paths again. ever.
but anyway, f*** you. both of you. mia and muzna. you make me feel dirty and disgusting and i honestly hope you both f*** up some day and are sent to jail. i don’t want any other minors to ever even cross paths with you both. you ruined me.
