Another day spent alone doing nothing. I woke up at 8 and stayed in bed til 12. I have no idea what to do with myself. They say I should go outside and go for a walk to make myself feel better, but that doesn’t work. My therapist is out sick today with covid. I wish i had someone to hang out with or talk to. Video games still aren’t filling the void. Tv is just a distraction. I am empty inside and directionless. I am watching my life pass me by. I feel like it won’t ever get better. I kinda wish I was dead, but I can’t go through with it because I can’t do that to my family. I am a baby bird that never left the nest. I am a living failure. I am a lonely virgin with no friends.