I genuinely don’t see the point in living anymore, at least in my situation. My usless f*** of a father abused me my entire life while my mom allowed it to happen because she was too infatuated with the m*********** to leave until i turned 18. Because of that, I never learned how to be a functioning a adult. I have a lot of mental problems I can’t afford to treat. My childhood was stolen and now I’m expected to work until I die for s*** I don’t care even slightly about. I don’t get to heal from my trauma, I can’t fit in with society, I’m too broken to offer anything to anyone. I just want someone to give me permission to lay down and never wake up again. I’m tired of trying because its all f****** temporary. My mental illness will NEVER go away. I think I’ll give myself permission instead.