I cant believe I was stupid enough to believe someone I barely knew was in love with me. Just because my heart is retarded and clings to people from my past doesnt mean that’s how other people’s hearts work. I cant believe I thought they liked watching my gross p***. I cant believe I thought they were watching my twitch stream. I cant believe I thought they were watching my reddit. I cant believe I thought their posts were about me. I was so crazy that I saw all these connections where there weren’t any and sent myself into a spiral I still havent recovered from. I was so convinced that there was some sort of conspiracy or treachery at play. The truth is, I was just desperate for some sort of meaningful connection. I know now that I’ll never have that. No wonder I went crazy, it was the only way to stay sane.
