I think I may be autistic and I’m scared to tell my family or friends. I’ve done research and the more I read the more certain I become and it scares me. So much of my life I’ve felt weird, or different and many times I’ve felt like I’ve ruined situations or friendships over things I can’t control in myself and I can’t decide if learning that these things could be autism scares me. I also don’t want to ask my doctor in fear of being wrong and ridiculed for self-diagnosing myself with something that so many others legitimately struggle with.