I feel dirty, like in a moral sense(?) I get a reward (new phone) for doing something good. What they want: apply for college. But treated like shit and

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I feel dirty, like in a moral sense(?)
I get a reward (new phone) for doing something good. What they want: apply for college.
But treated like s*** and like someone with a fault to them by not going to college for a year.
Thinking about it now, to justify my parents actions, its for my “best”.
IDK anymore bro. Talking bout this makes me icky emotional and my eyes watery.

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