I want my first time to be special but I’ve thought time and time again about going to a massage place you know one of those special ones. I’ve been so h**** lately and I can’t stop pleasuring myself multiple times a day. I’ve liked 3 girls in my life. One was online so we couldn’t f*** even if we wanted to, the other was a b**** who treated me and her other friends like s***, and the other doesn’t want a relationship but has led me on, but that’s whatever. Point is I’m sick of this feeling. Maybe if I do it I’ll finally get rid of this urge and I can go back to normal and stop thinking about s** near every hour of the day