I had a dream last night that I was blonde, skinny and gorgeous. Then I woke up and felt sad because I’ve always wanted to be pretty but I’m just not.. I’ve always been the ugly friend. I told my boyfriend about my dream and he was like, “Oh that’s weird babe.” I kind of expected him to be like, oh stop you’re beautiful. But nah I’m not worth a compliment I guess. lol I f****** hate myself. I’ve been feeling bad ever since he went soft after he asked me to ride him. Never f****** again. I don’t even want to have s** ever again. I feel so disgusting. Crying so hard my chest hurts.