I feel like I want to die, I sometimes want to take myself out even when driving deep inside I always wish there is a fatal accident happened to me so everything would end, I always thinking about doing that by myself but It’s too hard. Everyone always said that I will receive eternal suffering in hell if I off myself, and honestly I’m willing to take the chances of hell or absolutely nothing. Honestly the absolute nothing after death probably ease me, nothing to think, nothing to fear, just… Nothing