I have 5 siblings and for the most part when I was younger I was the most normal I really only had problems with being lactose so nothing serious my other siblings were in and out of psych wards hospitals one of my sisters is obese they all had a lot of friends but I was delayed so I Was tiny and didn’t really have friends I’m also the youngest so when I was younger I’d pray something bad happen to me like I get in an accident or my organs fail cuz I wanted everyone to pay attention to me cuz by the time I was here the adults were burnt out from the other 5 kids so I was always over looked and not really cared for now I’m 15 with partial intestinal failure kidney problems heart problems and I just got out of eating disorder treatment I wished all of this on me now I regret it I’m always in pain but in the end I just wanted to feel loved
