i'm 16 and i play netball with my friends. one of the girls on my team used to be my best friend but she just decided to stop putting in effort so i did

3 years

134 Views

i’m 16 and i play netball with my friends. one of the girls on my team used to be my best friend but she just decided to stop putting in effort so i did too. i’m not going to try in a one sided friendship. today, we were meant to have training after school. unfortunately it was cancelled and i was pushing for everyone to go and do some fitness training anyway, as the only reason it was cancelled was because the manager (her dad) couldn’t make it. i was asking why it was cancelled, and then on a voice note i heard another friends voice, keep in mind the training had JUST been cancelled, and since their dad was the manager i asked if they had anything to do with the cancellation. Since they are twins, they both went OFF at me. telling me i was a b****, they couldn’t accuse them or their dad of doing that, how mean i was being and i was honestly quite confronted. they started saying i had told them that they told their dad to cancel training so they could hang out with their friend, which i didn’t. I asked them if there had been a previous conversation and they then started to tell me that wasn’t true. i had the voice note, listened to it three times, and then wrote an apology message, not that i had anything to apologise for. their dad is not needed there, we can train ourselves. all they were going to do was sit around in their rooms and watch tiktok, which is pathetic when you think that we’re the top team for our age group. we excel in every game, majority of us play for state, and we’ve also been playing together for years. this isn’t the first time the two of them have ganged up on me and i’m honestly done putting in any effort to be either of their friends now. i’m done and i’m so sick of it. not to mention that b**** is dating my ex of 5 months. she’s a terrible person, only wants to know the gossip and proceeds to b**** about everyone. her boyfriend and her sister are her only friends. i hope she dies alone because she’s not pretty, not smart, and she has the worst case of gerascophobia i have ever seen. she tries to be “cute” and “sweet” but she’s just annoying. i’m sick of hearing about her stupid mental health issues, especially since she invalidates me for mine. I’m don’t with her and I WON’T be making an effort any time soon.

New Confession

I swallow more of my own c** than my wife ever has.

Related Confessions

I got mad at my boyfriend for talking to other girls in front of me, while I sat on his best friends lap. I feel like a hypocrite but at the same time I feel valid. My boyfriend asked me to do this, to play this role with his friend. My boyfriend and I are not supposed to be seen together in front of certain friends of his, and at this party I had to pretend to be his best friends girl so that no other guy would try to hit on me. Okay, so I played along and was now the girlfriend of his best friend. I did not tell him to flirt with other ladies right in front of me, or to dance with them. So I’m feeling petty, mad, and his friend is buying me drink after drink. I’m upset that I can’t be on my boyfriend so I start milking it with the friend, my ‘boyfriend’ of the night. I hold on his waist, I sit on his lap, to other couples that we talk to ‘we’re going to try for a child this year’, like we’re playing the part to a T, he’s feeling on me, were dancing naughty on the floor. I’ve never danced with anyone like that and I had a really good time with him because he looked after me so well. He didn’t even let me go to the bathroom alone, he’d wait by the door. He was so sweet. But I was so upset at my boyfriend for not even like trying to come say hi, check on me or anything. He was too busy with other ladies. By the end of the night, I was pretty toasty. I don’t even remember going to the last bar, but I remember being there again on his friends lap. He’d just hold me and talk to me while my boyfriend was again, talking to another girl. I told my ‘boyfriend of the night’ how upset it made me, and how I didn’t want to put up with it. Maybe I said a little much.. and I kind of regret it. I didn’t and wouldn’t kiss the friend, I would not sleep with the friend. But my boyfriend said ‘i’m not upset, but if I was not there i’m sure things would have escalated between the two of you’. Which I kind of took offense to because I was doing what he told me to! I’ve only been with two guys and him! Three total, I don’t sleep around! and he has the nerve to say that. I don’t know. I’m upset, but I also feel like a hypocrite. Maybe I milked it too hard by dancing with the friend, by holding his thigh while we sat together. UGH I get flustered just thinking about it! But he made me feel safe and like I could do those things without anything more happening! He was kind and didn’t push any limits. There was no risk between us. But I did have a good time. I am debating on whether or not to message the friend (get this, the friend and I are connected on social media but my own bf won’t unblock me because he can’t risk people knowing about us because hes married..) ANYWAY I was debating on whether or not to message the friend and just thank him for the night. and also apologize for.. getting a little sloppy and handsy.. I hold my face in embarrassment just thinking about it.
I asked my bf after that night if he was upset with me, and he say’s ‘Nah I really don’t care, just s*** me off’. . .
I’m so … stupid.

So after writing this, I messaged the friend. I apologized for getting handsy and thanked him for the fun night. He said he had a GREAT time with me and that I should be brought out to dance more. (I never get taken out to dance.) The realization of all of this is making me cry lol.. I’m feeling even more conflicted than I was ten minutes ago. . . Well time to go back to work in the office now.