Today I pretended to be at work for a company I used to work for so that I didn’t have to talk to my grandmother. She likes to guilt me alot, sometimes even going as far as to telling people that I don’t love her, just so she could gain sympathy, or even IF she had Dementia, its too much to take care of her, my father, myself, and my home without feeling overwhelmed. I don’t get any help from anyone else with her. She accuses me of stealing from her and little known fact, is around the house she has a gun, I legit fear for my life, the woman has stated she wanted to shoot me, and accused me of stealing her marriage license. I love my grandmother more than I’ve ever loved my mother for reasons that no one in my family can understand. I’m drowning in my own guilt over not helping her. She could be on the floor. In her home, and I’m being a s***** child by not answering.
My best friend doesn’t realize she hates me. When we make friends her first thing is to tell them what a b**** I am, and then when she gets them all to herself, she doesn’t want to deal with them anymore. She cannot stand to see anyone happier than her or in relationships, as a rule PDA is not allowed around her but she does it herself. IN FRONT OF US. Especially when we are single or just not having any good luck in the love department. She doesn’t see what she does and pays more attention to everyone else around her, then when you say something about what she does, she pulls out the “mental illness” card, or says that her anxiety made her do it and now her “anxiety” is making it hard for her to deal with the confrontation that she dishes out to everyone else. I’ve painfully had to distance myself from her. Can’t talk to her, because she won’t listen. She loses friends and then wonders why she’s not the center of attention. Then when everyone gives her the attention, she doesn’t want it.
She does not like it when there is another girl getting the attention, she says that “her anxiety won’t let her meet new people.” but you’re on online sites getting mad at people you already knew for talking to someone you don’t like. Its like watching someone need the help and won’t go for help.
I’m getting pretty sick of this from her tbh.
She yells ‘practice what you preach’ but she’s the main violator. You cannot rely on her to vent to, she uses your struggle as a reason she’s now “stressed.” She flips out over even a slight plan change. I wanted to help her recently but how I’m feeling about my granny. I don’t think I’ll be going over to “hang out” for a while.