I am at the lowest point of my life. Everyone around me excelled and achieved their dreams, leaving me so behind. I could barely survive the wave. I almost drowned. I feel a bitter pain in my throat. Sometimes I wonder what went so wrong. I wonder if this pain will go away one day. I am grieving myself. I grieved for losing myself in the chaos. I pretend to be okay and keep a smile on, even though I am completely destroyed inside. I hope to see the storm goes away soon. I’m sorry.