I hate being 20, having a license, and still not getting to enjoy life in the slightest. Things others take for granted i can’t do. I cant just go iutside and take a walk, i can’t just go grab food im craving, or take a drive just cuz, my emotional need and wants are things my parents have never fufilled in my life. I make literal perfect grades. I do all the house work, making up even for what my siblings dont do. There is no way for me to be better, yet everytime i ask for anything it’s a no. I don’t even ask them to pay for it. I’m paying for all my stuff but still i need yet can’t get permission. Why can’t they recognize how it hurts me? I can’t even compromise or negotiate bc my whole life they get mad if i push beyond the “no”. Whole life too busy too tired for me. I feel sad and useless. Whether im good or bad, perfect or failing, what does it matter? I get treated like s*** while my other siblings who do less get to have more freedom than me. I don’t even ask for anything’s permission 99% of the time bc i know there’s a “no” waiting for me. But the one time i have hope or take a chance… I dont even askf or anything ridiculous. I as an adult want to go to a concert. For a group that NEVER comes to my country. Just once. I never went to a concert. Im tired of b******* excuses bc my best friend is of the same cultural background, makes perfect grades too, and her family lets her do things, they reward her and let her have some independence. My parents say they’re proud of me if i ask, but in reality i feel Like everyone in my family takes me for granted.