My worst fear has finally been realized in my life. The man i fell in love with has pushed me so far into dispare that i only have 2 choices. Leave him and lose everything that is my life or stay with him and be miserable my whole life. He controls all the money in our family because i do not work. I do everything around the house, meals and kids. He always has something to tell me im doing wrong. He tells me its my fault we dont have s**, but he doesnt do anything to help my side of things. Just expects me to jump him no matter how im feeling. I try to explain my feelings and how his actions affect me but he only pretends to understand, until i smile again, then back to making me feel like s***.
He is abusive in everyway EXCEPT physically but refuses to see how much he had destoryed me. I am a shell of a person because of him. We koved across the country with 2 kids so i have no where to go. No job, no family, no money. I have no legal rights to my oldest son(technically step son) and fear i would lose him. Im at the point of giving up and just allowing him to do whatever he wants and just staying around to ensure my kids have a home and I can stay in their lives 24/7. I will always sacrafice my happiness for my children. I know keeping a family together who is unhappy is not the best situation, but in my eyes, its better then the alternative right now.
